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[When the feed turns on, Banjou has a guitar in his lap, the camera at an awkward angle that focuses more on the guitar than it does Banjou. He doesn't seem to mind this, idly strumming at it without trying to play a particular song. It's not like he can actually read sheet music, so everything he does is played on the fly anyway.]

I have a question.

[He finally settles on something melodic, if repetitive, before he continues.]

Does anyone here have hobbies they find difficult to continue here? Or something they've found they have more time for here as opposed to where they come from? Take what I'm doing-- I never had as much time as I wanted back home.

It's complicated, but I think I'm beginning to enjoy the freedom this place gives me.

I was wondering if anyone else felt the same way.

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[They're both trying. That's worth acknowledging at the very least.]

If you don't mind a lot of improvisation, sure.

[He'll take it at face value. Tsukiyama isn't the sort of person to offer something without meaning it on some level, as far as Banjou knows anyway. That, and Banjou's heard Tsukiyama play before.]

Things were too serious to ever do something like that back home, weren't they? I don't mind doing it here.

[It's not like Banjou is looking forward to it or anything, but his tone is on the politer end of neutral.]

[There's nothing wrong with spending time with him, Banjou-san, even if he is more than a little capricious. It's just a matter of keeping up with him and not being easily offended.]

Even if they hadn't been, somehow I doubt you and I would have had any interest, anyway.

[...well, Banjou's getting better now that they're not constantly in a life or death situation, but that doesn't mean he's stopped being prone to getting grouchy with Tsukiyama.

At least the man hasn't gone back to putting flowers in his hair?]

Probably not.

[There had been too many differences in ideologies for either to want to spend any more time than needed around the other.

It begs the question: when did that change?]

....it doesn't matter now.

[Ah, but it looked cute, though...

That said, he's a little slower to pick up on the implication there, but that doesn't mean that he doesn't catch it at all; his expression goes a little strange for a moment, his gaze darting down somewhere off-feed, and he pets Nadia for a moment before he speaks.]

No, it doesn't.

[The agreement is an easy one, at least.]

I don't really mind that, either.

[Maybe this will stop being awkward one day. For now, Banjou will deal with it because for all the ways he doesn't entirely trust Tsukiyama, he does trust him enough.

That's not something he could do in Tokyo.]

Let me know when you're interested in playing together. I can't promise it'll be anything approaching professional, but I'm sure Meridiana will appreciate us playing.

[...Will you look at that. That last bit actually goes a decent way toward making the conversation suck decidedly less, thank you.]

Miss Everett would enjoy that, I think - we've discussed music before, she likes it quite a bit.

[Because apparently we can actually agree on keeping the cute Victorian girl happy.]

Answer something for me?

[He's trying.

Well, they're both trying.]

All right. Ask away.

We don't really have much reason to keep doing this anymore, do we? Preserving the alliance and all that, I mean - there's no explicit reason, is there?

[He doesn't seem troubled at all by asking, though he is back to idly petting Nadia again.]

Ah, and before you ask, I'm not asking with any sort of ulterior motive; I just want to hear your thoughts on it.

[It's not like he's never thought about it before. No, they don't have to keep preserving the alliance. There's no need for it, especially with a Kaneki neither of them worked for here.]

There really isn't a need for it anymore, is there?

[...and while he's at it, this is probably a conversation they should have in private. There's a delay as he sets the guitar down long enough to lock the feed.]

But let's be honest: this hasn't been about the alliance in at least a month.

[Well, he's not going to protest the lock, and it doesn't seem like he's going to protest that latter assertion, either; he just laughs a bit, actually, and he shrugs, and he tosses his head a bit before he responds.]

How forward of you, Banjou-san - and behind a filter as well! Keep this up and I'll start thinking there's something you're not telling me.

[...Because surely you didn't think you were getting off easily.]

But you do have a point - of course it hasn't. Though that begs the question of what it is about, n'est-ce pas?

[Oh, thank god the Gear isn't aimed at his face because Banjou turned red immediately. Thanks, Tsukiyama. He's going to choose not to acknowledge that remark at all, thanks.]

I wouldn't know what this is about!

[Getting defensive is the last thing he needs to be doing right now.]

Whatever this is, it's better than fighting.

[You're welcome! Admittedly, the defensiveness is not helping any case Banjou may be trying to make here; at least Tsukiyama seems more amused than taken aback.

...Which is arguably worse, depending on how you want to look at things, but still.]

Calmato, calmato - if you truly find it preferable to fighting, why don't we try to keep it that way, hm? I'm not trying to argue with you.

[...he really hates it when Tsukiyama makes a good point, but Banjou isn't going to argue with it.]

I don't have a problem with that.

[Maybe he should adjust the Gear so it's not aimed at his chest. Tsukiyama gets a few moments of shaky-cam before Banjou adjusts the feed so they're talking at each other instead of the weird Skype conversation they were having before.]

[Almost all of his points are good ones, if you ask him; it's not his fault people don't happen to share his point of view.

That said, he appreciates actually having some idea of what Banjou's doing with his face; here's hoping he doesn't make him blush again, goodness.]

So all of this comes down to the fact that we want to, then. No expectations.

[At least with Banjou, it becomes immediately obvious if Tsukiyama has said something to offend him. Or if anyone has said something to offend him, really. ]

That's right. I think that's fair, don't you? This isn't about anyone but ourselves.

[The Kaneki here would probably be more alarmed than not about them doing things for him.]

Whether I think it's fair or not never has anything to do with it, amore, and I think you know exactly why.

[He's always been the resident outlier of this little group of theirs, after all.

Not that he seems bothered by it any; if he is, he's certainly not going to talk to Banjou about it if such a thing can be avoided.]

I'm not looking for sympathy or reassurance, mind you, since things like that don't interest me any; I just find it strange that we should continue to associate without expecting some sort of payoff.

[...Short of taking friendship into consideration, at which point companionship is its own reward, but that's not an idea he's entertaining simply because it's so insipid.]

[...Banjou tries so hard not to get angry with Tsukiyama. He doesn't disagree, but he looks faintly annoyed just the same.]

Maybe it is strange.

[With the way ghouls are, there should be some sort of payoff. Granted, the situation with Kaneki's group had been complicated to say the least, and things have managed to remain just as complicated even in the place where they're not constantly looking over their shoulders.]

I haven't given this as much thought as I should be.

[That...actually seems to relax him a bit; for all intents and purposes, he looks entirely content to just accept that and move on.]

If it wasn't concerning you before, Banjou-san, don't let it start now; you've told me what I wanted to know already.

[Honestly, he doesn't know what to make of all of this, but as far as Banjou's concerned, they're not enemies. He'd told Tsukiyama, months ago, before he'd arrived in Johto that he didn't trust him, but now... well, to be honest, there is some amount of trust. They live together, even if Banjou's something rather like an awkward roommate.]

Is there anything else you needed to discuss, Tsukiyama-san?

[It's less a matter of ascertaining whether Banjou trusts him and more wondering if he's going to expect something eventually; it's just the way things are, isn't it? Nothing ever comes for free, peace included; everyone wants something in the end. He just likes knowing what the price is in advance.

He's just as paranoid as Banjou is, when all is said and done; it just manifests differently, is all. Less looking over one's shoulder in fear of being stabbed in the back, and more knowing that it's inevitable that he will be and wanting to know if he can negotiate down - maybe stab him in the side instead of between the ribs.]

...Do you have an answer to your own question, regarding hobbies that are difficult to pursue here?

[He probably should have expected that, but he still looks a little surprised by the question.]

I wouldn't call it a hobby, exactly, but sometimes I wonder if I'll still be capable of being Kaneki's "shield."

[Banjou does miss being a ghoul, but that goes without saying.]

...You know, I'm sure some people are preparing for dates tonight. Some are watching movies. Some are playing with their Pokémon. And then here we are, talking about how much we miss being able to possibly get ourselves killed for someone else.

[Again, he doesn't sound troubled by it; if anything he's entertained.]

It almost makes me wonder what the supposedly normal people talk about in their spare time.

[That does make them sound pretty damn unusual. Not that Banjou wasn't already aware of it, of course. Hearing it makes him pause.]

I wouldn't know. They must have problems of their own, it's just not as... unique as our situation.

[Not everyone here comes from a peaceful world. The whole kill-or-be-killed lifestyle is probably not as unique to ghouls as Banjou would have first thought, though he doesn't have actual proof of that.]

Maybe they're complaining about misplacing phones or running late to appointments instead.

[That was a joke.

He tried.]

[...Banjou-san, he's almost proud of you.]

Either that or they're all leading some sort of completely fascinating double life that we never get to see; somehow I doubt anyone here thinks the gentleman playing guitar over the network and talking about his hobbies has things like this to talk about, after all.

...I would have included myself in that as well, but I've been told that no, this is exactly the sort of thing that people would be completely unsurprised to hear me talking about. Not that I can fathom why.

[That's...actually completely facetious; not self-deprecating per se, because that's a little much if you ask him, but he's been informed so many times that he's more than a little obvious that he's willing to be self-aware about it, if nothing else.]

[All things considered, this is a surprisingly normal conversation as far as they go.]

I doubt it. I don't think anyone would believe me even if I said so.

[Which... might work to his advantage. He can have some amount of stealth, here.

Tsukiyama's comment about himself actually gets Banjou to smile.]

Maybe you should think up a story to tell people.

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